December 2004

In this day of halter tops and booty shorts, I am one of the few and the proud. Some guys may find skanky apparel such as that to be “sexy,” but I find nothing more attractive than a girl in a… ::drum roll:: …hooded sweatshirt. Seriously. I’m not sure why, but I know I’m not alone in this… right Jernigan? :-) I don’t think I could explain why this is so; it’s just one of those things. Maybe it’s the softness of the thick cotton? Maybe it’s the modesty, purity, and innocence it conveys about a girl? Maybe I don’t know what the heck I’m talking about? Maybe I just need to shut up? Indeed.

Speaking of… Indeed–a vastly underrated term of affirmation… In other words, it’s a cool way to say “yes.” It sounds so intelligent and distinguished. Think about it…

Roommate No. 1: “Dang dude! Did you stink up the bathroom?”
Me: “Indeed.”

I may have stunk-up the bathroom, but at least I sound classy when I confirm it. Am I right? Indeed. HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE! That is, if I don’t post again before Christmas.


I could hear the church bells ringing.
They pealed aloud your praise.
The member’s faces were smiling,
With their hands outstretched to shake.
It’s true, they did not move me.
My heart was hard and tired.
Their perfect fire annoyed me.
I could not find You anywhere.
Could someone please tell me the story
Of sinners ransomed from the fall.
I still have never seen You, and somedays
I don’t love You at all

The devoted were wearing bracelets
To remind them why they came.
Some concrete motivation
When the abstract could not do the same.
But if all that’s left is duty, I’m falling on my sword.
At least then, I would not serve an unseen distant lord.

Could someone please tell me story
Of sinners ransomed from the fall.
I still have never seen You, and somedays
I don’t love You at all.

If this is only a test,
I hope that I’m passing, ‘cuz I’m losing steam.
But I still want to trust You.

Peace be still.

by Pedro the Lion

Powerful song–one I can relate to a lot. Sometimes I feel like giving up (and I’m sure I’m not the only one). Sometimes I am jealous of other people’s faith to the point of aggravation and annoyance. Sometimes I act in ways that don’t express love for God or others. And sometimes I feel so weary of this world and distant from God that I just want it all to go away. But in the end, I am always drawn back to Him, learning to trust Him, and striving to make it through what ever comes my way. I eventually remember that just because I can’t do something on my own, that doesn’t mean I can’t do it with God’s help. Always remind yourself of this fact; if you forget, life just gets harder.