That’s it. I’ve had enough, and I’m not gonna put up with it anymore. Not from myself, and not from you either. Many people think others should mind their own business. Many people think they can deal with things just fine on their free will. Well, you know what? I’m tired of just sitting around waiting for things to get better. Things aren’t going to get better without putting forth some effort… and that’s exactly what I’m gonna do.
I came to a realization recently. I can’t just sit around wishing, hoping, and praying that things will get better for me and those closest to me. Don’t misunderstand me… praying is an essential component of our relationship with God, but it’s not enough if there’s more we can do. I can pray relentlessly that God give me the strength to resist my temptations, but if I don’t actually put my foot down and say, “NO!” then what’s the point? Too many times we say a prayer for strength just to make ourselves feel better. We don’t really want the strength… we just want to convince ourselves that we’re trying to be good, when in reality we’re not trying at all. Well, I’m sick of it. I know I’m never gonna be perfect and my weaknesses will always haunt me, but I’m serious this time.
I’m taking action. I’m not going to destroy myself anymore… and if I can help it, I’m not going to let my friends enslave themselves either. God has given me the strength and I’m finally ready to use it. And if you don’t like it… tough.
“Whom have I in heaven but You? And besides You, I desire nothing on earth. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. For, behold, those who are far from You will perish; You have destroyed all those who are unfaithful to You.”